These Are The Days

I keep looking over at the baby monitor. Carefully checking for signs of stirring.

Do I have time to work through a few things on my list before I hear a tiny voice calling for me?

I do my best to balance the needs of my family, while looking for little pockets of time to enjoy things from my life before my name was mama. Things like eating without sharing, a bathroom visit without a tiny companion and a hot cup of coffee from start to finish with no microwave.

Despite all of that, deep in my heart, I know that these are the days.

These are the days of midnight feedings, sleepy mornings, footie jammies, food dropped from a high chair, toys scattered on the floor, squeals and giggles, nose wiping, endless diapers, stroller walks, bath time splashing, rocking chairs, thick book pages, running, watching and chasing.

These days are long and the nights are even longer. But these ARE the days.

These are the days I will look back on and see the two tiny answers to prayer that really aren’t so tiny. These days are so full, but so very sweet.

These are the days that feel like nap time is too short and the hours until bedtime are too long.

These are the days of sticky floors, an overflowing diaper bag, and cheerios scattered in my car.

In the middle of it all, I’m realizing that I’m living in the days I prayed so hard for, and yet I have never had days where I have prayed this hard.

I’m constantly praying for patience, healthy babies and wisdom as I figure out how to shepherd these little lives. I’m also sprinkling in prayers for a good nights sleep.

These days are full of doing my best and wondering if it’s all enough.

As the world feels heavy and the demands of motherhood just keep coming, I realize just how much I have to rely on God’s strength to make it through these days.

Sometimes, if I’m really honest, I long for these days to be easier. But I know that once those “easier” days are here, I’ll scroll through the pictures of these days and my heart will miss them.

Because even though these days are incredibly full, so is my heart.